Audition
Dear Chris,
How are you? Do you enjoy your life in Canada? Last week, I felt very disappointed and depressed due to the rejection in an audition. As you know, being an actress is my dream. Being rejected not only brought along sadness to me, but also made me lose confidence in being an actress. I’d like to share this experience with you, hope you could understand my feelings.
Last week, the school drama club sent me an invitation, which asked me to join an audition for a major role in Romeo and Juliet. I think you could imagine how exciting I was. I was keen on acting and it was a good chance for me to fulfill my dream on being an actress. I went to the audition with joy and excitement. But they were replaced by nervousness after I entered the auditorium. There were nearly a hundred of students waiting for the audition, which suggested a keen competition for the major role.
After all the students were settled, the teacher in charge of the drama club, who was also the judge of the audition, stepped out. He held a tennis racket and asked each of us to prepare for a one-minute performance with the racket. “What am I supposed to do with a racket?” I thought. When it was my turn to perform, I stepped up to the stage under great pressure and nervousness. I could think of nothing to act with a racket! What I could do was just grabbing the tennis racket like holding a guitar and sang. I tried to act like as a singer who was playing the guitar. My performance made me look like a fool, who attracted laughers from the audience. I felt embarrassed after my act. What’s more, I saw the judge shaking his head and put a cross on my application form. This disappointed me a lot because I didn’t think he admired my performance.
After the one-minute performance, the audition continued. The teacher distributed a script to each of us and asked us to play the role of Juliet. I truly believed I could gain a high score in this part as I thought I myself was good at showing the character’s emotion and feelings. I read through the lines on the scripts and found that Juliet was angry at that part of the story. On the stage, I put all my anger on the face and shouted out the lines. While I finished my performance with great confidence, the judge gave his comment. He said I had caught the wrong emotion of the character, which made my performance strange. At the instant, I was shocked by him. I couldn’t believe that the “strength” which I thought I have got, actually did not exist.
I left the audition with disappointment and sorrow. After two days, the result of the audition was announced, I didn’t get a role in the drama.
After this audition, I started questioning myself about whether I am suitable for being an actress. Could you give me some advice? I hope you could share my feelings.
Best wishes,
Pat